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Of fire and ice
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Are You Awake ?

Lichtjes experimentele documentaire over lucide dromen.

Are you awake
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Een kort reclamefilmpje voor het Rits...

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Bad news, the project will be postponed

Well,

I just received a phone call and an e-mail from my promotor. He told me the school cannot approve of my project. There's too much risk involved for me and others, and since this is my graduation project the school is responsible if something goes wrong. I can SAY it's all my responsibility and finish my project, but that means I won't be able to graduate. My film would not be allowed before the jury.

Therefore, they have decided to put a stop to the experiment.

I could continue the film if I faked it, used myself as some kind of loser character who has this plan and doesn't go through with it, but that is not my point. If it would turn out this way, and I would chicken out of all my missions, than yes, that would be my film, and as a film it could be interesting and funny to watch. But I will not take out all the risks and then portray myself as some weak-spirited asshole for the sake of having a mediocre film.

So for now, I will focus on finding another subject to make a film about. It'll be easier.

I hope to return to this project once I graduate. This does kinda fuck up my plans for the summer, though.

My apologies to those who were looking forward to this, but it's out of my hands. 

Don't let this stop you from finding inspiration in this idea, and keep searching for yourself.

Hopefully I'll be back this summer.

Goodbye for now,

Sammy

I hit the city

Well, this experiment has been less awkward than I thought it would be. For now, at least.

I decided to start slow, got a dress and a dildo and went out in the streets of Antwerp. People mostly laughed, and so did I. It felt as if I was looking at myself. And I looked ridiculous. 

I think it has a disarming quality to it. People don't think about themselves when they see some guy walking around in a dress and a dildo strapped to his head. And because I was able to look at myself as a different person, it felt kind of disarming to me too.

It was fucking cold though. So I got some stockings, or tights, whatever they're called. 

A group of Dutch people came to talk to me. 

"You're not going to a party, are you? Does this have some kind of purpose?"

"Well, I'm supposed to walk around like this until I reach the point where I absolutely don't care what other people think of me anymore."

"Ah, awesome! Life only begins when you stop caring what others think about you! Success with your project!"

Awesome people. 

I wonder what else is in store. I can feel that talking to people isn't really that much of a problem. Looking like this, whatever you say, you can't really make yourself look worse...

Ah, another day, another experience. I'm tired right now. Gotta get out of this dress.

Good night, everyone.

A slight change of plans

Alright,

I had a couple meetings yesterday regarding my film. It seems most of my teachers are afraid I can't handle this project. They may be right. After all, I am in my last year for the second time because I didn't finish my film last year. 

Now, this is largely due to the fact that this truth-seeking thing is a bit new to me. Only last year I started discovering parts of the truth I had been longing for. And it kept changing and expanding, and I had to keep changing the idea for turning this quest into a film. I'm still not sure whether it CAN be translated into a film. But I do love film. And I do love truth-seeking. So I don't really I think I have another option.

That being said, I have made an agreement with my promotor. If by the end of next week, I don't have some promising material for the film, or I feel this project is going to crush me, I will put a stop to it. For the time being. I will find another subject for a film and do that instead.

I have other ideas for films, of course, I just feel they are not as important to me as this project.

However, this project is not an easy one. It's hard just to do these things for yourself, personally. It's alot harder to also distance myself from the project, and look at it as a director to make sure it is filmed in the right way.

This means I have to get my shit together. I have decided to deviate a bit from my original planning. I have to have some tangible results (both personally and professionally) by the end of next week.

This means I will start with the dress-and-dildo mission right now. It leaves the most space for improvisation and correction, and will probably help me get the film on the right track. 

I'll be able to constantly evaluate the progress and the content and style of my film. 

There, I'm off now. I'll just grab something to eat and then it's time to put myself out there.

I'll check in tonight to post an update.